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Just for once. Will you ever let me go? Have you ever feel afraid of losing me? What if one day I'm no longer here. What if I'm gone forever. This is not a post to seek an attention. It a questions. The questions I always wonder. Sometimes, even people who always be there, the one you thought will never leave you. Leave. Because you take them for granted.Because at some point, they will get tired. They will giving up because fighting alone in a battlefield is not that easy. I might kill 100 people in the battle yet I might died being killed by 1 person because I'm tired. I've tried the best yet I'm not that strong. And I'm lose. I'm not asking too much. I will always be there. I will give everything you need. Is that not enough? If you don't want to lose anyone just one thing you got to do. Appreciate them. Don't ever take someone for granted.  -- Yeah blog da updated! Holla stalker! haha Happy?

It just frustrated that I have too many word in my mind but I can't let them out. I have a lot things to say about my feelings but I'm afraid it will hurt people I loved. Sometimes I wish I am strong enough to let things out but I am not. I was hurt. I feel lost. I feel empty. I feel hopeless, helpless and I think I don't deserve what I have now. Only once I want people to say that they need me, I want them to say that my presence matters and I mean something. Once. That feeling  I will never be good enough for anyone actually devastating. I want to be someone important. At least in your life. And I have this question stuck in mind. If I'm no longer here. Will someone miss me? will they? will he? will she? will you?

"...This is my love letter for you, I still remember the first time I ever saw you laugh. You look so happy that time. I tengok dari belakang. Yes. I still remember that moment. I boleh recall lagi the time I nampak you tunggu I kat lrt masa first date kita. Dan I masih rasa selesa untuk berbual dan bercerita dengan you sama dari first date kita sampai sekarang. I masih ingat juga betapa susahnya I nak terima some part of you. Your life ans everything. But eventually, your flaws make me love you more and more everyday. I love the way you laugh out loud. I love the way you eat. I love the way you talk about dota. I love the way you explain something to me. I still remember the terms NKVE. Yes I love everything about you. It comforts me in a lot of way. I ingat lagi our first movie ever, Hunger Games. And you makan nasi ayam. Dan masa tu la kita ada first pic together. I love when you take my picture. Candid. Seriously. Selalu bila balik date and you send all those candid p...

I'm that kind of girl who will wait for you doesn't matter how long  if you ask me to. I'm that kind of girl who will stay no matter how worst the situation if you want me to. I'm that kind of girl who love someone with the whole heart. I'm that kind of girl who want nothing from you except for you to be happy and smile. I'm that kind of girl who will stand by your side through thick or thin. I'm that kind of girl who need nothing less but love. I'm that kind of girl who love too much, give too much and I  don't care how much it hurts as long as you are happy. I'm that kind of girl who never be good enough or perfect partner. But I'm that kind of girl. And I am your girl.

I might not show how miserable am I. Semalam mimpi. Dihujung cerita. Mida jumpa arwah opah. Tengah baca alquran. Mida baring kat riba opah. And my tear burst. From dream to reality. I wish arwah opah still here. Mida rindu opah. Al-Fatihah.

Nothing else matter other than your happiness. I need to see your smile and laugh again. I'm sorry. Forgive me?

What if you never get the chance to tell someone that you really love them and you care about them? What if you never get the chance to see someone you love ever again? What if someone you always trust betray you? What if you lost someone you love in order to achieve something? What if everything just not the way you hope it would be? And What if I died will someone remember me and miss me?