Maybe because we all are trying here

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You know why I distance myself with some people. Some just happens, some due to petty things but most of all due to moments...you know that exactly after 25 days of giving birth to my daughter, I lost my dad. During those times it was the hardest for me, dealing with my postpartum and losing my dear dad. I remember those moments and people who are there with me. When I was alone with my baby at home. When I was there at home while my dad being buried. The hardest moment in my life and only few people are there with me. How some people I thought will be there for Syifa and see her growing up is actually doesn't even bother to ask about her. How hard it is for me dealing with everything and the only thing people remember is me not being there for them. I bet they were struggling too during those times. So they can't be there for me. Probably it was the same for them. I should tolerate it. How about feeling excluded? Lahhhh, probably my fault. I don't have courage to drive. I have to think a lot whether to bring my daughter or not. It is hard to go out with toodler kan? But...of course there are people that is always there. You know who you are. Who actually care and celebrate me. I'm protecting my peace. I'm doing things alone and enjoying hobby alone so I am okay with being alone and being excluded. 

I stop giving effort to the people if I don't feel the same anymore. It just me, my 2 friends and my siblings. 

Maybe we all are trying here but maybe...our energy doesn't match and our path is different. 

Wanted to post my review about this drama..we all are trying here. I love it so much. 

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