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Harder

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It is harder than I thought guys. I thought I will be okay, but the first day I already feel so wrong. I started to worry. I don't know guys. I keep questioning myself. At this time I feel like no one understand me. Really. I just need a support. But most important thing I need to convince myself.  Susah nak mula semula. Bila da umur macam ni rasa macam leceh nak start all over again. Whether it is new place or environment to stay, or new work or friendship or relationship. Sebab tu ada orang stay bertahun-tahun buat kerja yang dia benci, buat kerja yang sama, masih bertahan dengan pasangan walaupun sebenarnya sakit sebab dah selasa dan penat nak mula semula.  When all the negative thought come and kicking it is really hard. It makes me feel like I want to cry, I want to scream out loud. I don't know. The thought of 'kena cari kerja lain' 'kena pergi interview' 'berapa lama it will take?' ' can I really do it' Days like this make me

I QUIT

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I quit my job. Yes I said it. After 9 months working as temp staff. I decided to quit and not to continue my contract anymore. Not because they don't want to but because I think it's time. It is a hard decision for me. People keep asking me " da dapat kerja lain ke?" "kenapa tak sambung je sampai dapat kerja lain?" I have consider everything before I decided to quit. Please note that it's not easy for me. I love the environment, if I hate it I would quit at the first 3 months. I was promised to be convert as permanent but after 9 months. Nothing in progress. Things still keep in view. My senior manager once tell me to be firm. I see no where I can go anymore. I need to go fast. I need to grow. I need to learn a lot more. I can't sit still any longer. It's easier said than done.  So, finally I decided to quit. Without any offer yet. But I think I need to quit in order to move. You know one of the quote in Hlovate book said "you need